Saturday, July 14, 2012

It's 12:00 AM


My phone just lit up with an announcement:
 "It's your wedding day!" it tells me.
Could this be true? Is it really here? I pinch myself and feel it. I look around the room: empty closet, no more suitcases or boxes or things lying around. Just one piece of luggage by the door with a brand new luggage tag that says Anna McCullouch. But I think it's the white dress hanging from my closet door that is the most convincing. It really is here. I really am getting married- today!

I've been waiting on this day for so long. Not only throughout our six-month engagement, or even our four year relationship, but almost my entire life. I began praying for my husband when I was in middle school. I prayed for a man after God's heart, a hard-working, gentle, kind, smart, patient, playful soul that complemented me in every way. And tonight that very man is just a few miles away looking up at the ceiling of a hotel room thinking about me

Every ounce of humanly love I possess is tied so tightly around his heart. Neither of us have a single doubt God has brought us together. And tomorrow we will come together before Him with our families and friends to commit our lives to one another from now until the very last breath escapes our lungs. I have searched the files of words stored away in my brain and with each thought of Travis I can only ever settle on one: everything. He is everything I need, and together we will be able to live our lives united in the way God intended. 
The day I've been waiting on for what seems like an eternity is finally here. And tomorrow we will truly become one in marriage. 
Happy just doesn't seem to cover such a feeling. 

Happy Birthday to me.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

nine.

One of them: I'm getting married in 9 days. 

I haven't posted recently because honestly I haven't been able to put my thoughts into words. I'm so anxious, so excited, a little nervous, and beyond blessed that I have found such a perfect partner to ride out the rest of this life with me. God always promised he had something wonderful in store for me, and this couldn't be off to a better start. 

In other exciting news, I got my braces off yesterday morning! So relieved to have that taken care of. Now I can smile even wider on the big day. A few hours after I got those suckers off (and had my teeth filed- yikes!) I had bridal portraits made. I so so so want to put a couple of shots he took on here, but I'm traditional enough to not want everyone to see me before I walk down the aisle. However, I'm sure I'll be bombarding a future post with as many photos as it will let me load.

Speaking of loading, I am getting up early tomorrow to load my car with a last load of wedding gifts and housewares and heading to Southaven. I'm looking forward to seeing Travis- it will be the last time until he comes back for the wedding! This is such a surreal feeling, and I wouldn't trade it for anything...

Goodnight.